Two Sides of the Argument

Part of my brain says: "I with they would fucking die."

The other part says: "I hate myself for thinking this." It goes on to say, "I hate myself for the Yuki ordeal, for my grades, and for everything. If myself were a separate person, I would torture him until he died, painfully."
A little voice says, "Maybe Yuki-san would like to kill me. That would be good."

Because, of course, suicide is just stupid. Stupid and cowardly.


.....A series of unfortunate events?

My arm hurts...
My heart hurts...
I think my body is trying to kill itself.